Chief Engineer’s personal log
Meditation helps this time. There is that at least. Working to exhaustion helps too.
Talia noticed something is wrong. I suspect she is not the only one. But this is not something I can talk with her about. It is not really something I can talk with anyone on the ship about.
I wish I could spend some time with Adept Varen, but he is over 40 light years away. Or speak with Selak. Text messages across half the Federation are an inadequate substitute.