A poor welcome

Chief Engineer’s personal log
Stardate 959.7

There are many things that I do not understand. There are some that I do not want to understand. The reception at Zuriel falls into the latter. I’ve seen it before, too many times before and the usual explanation is usually the Romulan war, or the Xindi attack on earth, or other events even further in the past. I can’t discount those, and I can’t discount that my experience is different to theirs, Vulcan has never been threatened in such a way, but it often seems as though it is more of an excuse for behaviour than a true cause. Especially when I consider that I’ve seen the same from my own people.

 

Coping

Chief Engineer’s personal log
Stardate 917.8

Meditation helps this time. There is that at least. Working to exhaustion helps too.

Talia noticed something is wrong. I suspect she is not the only one. But this is not something I can talk with her about. It is not really something I can talk with anyone on the ship about.

I wish I could spend some time with Adept Varen, but he is over 40 light years away. Or speak with Selak. Text messages across half the Federation are an inadequate substitute.